Ihaven'tbeen dating anyone in the last year and these last few weeks I

Ihaven'tbeen dating anyone in the last year and these last few weeks I have been feeling like I miss it and would like to start going out with men again. Last year my boyfriend of 4 years and father of my 2 year olddaughterbrokeup after I finally realized that he was never going to make acommitmentto me. After dating him for so long and losing all that time I was so hurt that I decided I would just stay home with my daughter and concentrate on her, I needed time to grieve for my relationship. Now it's been a year and I think it's time for me to at least begin to get out there a bit more, I don't exactly have to date but I would like to begin to have a social life.

I am still going to concentrate on my daughter but if I could have one night of the week to go out I might be a happier person. After hanging out with a 2 year old exclusively for a whole year I ambeginningto forget what it's like to hang out with adults my own age. As it is I can't even remember when the last time I had a kiss or a touch from a man was. Even before her dad and I broke up we had started becoming distant with each other. It would be nice to have theattentionof a man again, even if it's only one night per week.

I don't know how my daughter will deal with her mom dating, she is still a little girl and will not understand at all but what she is going to notice is that her mommy will be away from her for a few hours.Hopefullyshe won’t give herself a stroke, but I know it's going to take some getting used to on her part. This whole year we have been each other’s comfort, for we both lost someone. She only sees her dad once every few months and theseparationwas very hard for her. In order for me to begin dating I have to go about it the right way so that she does not suffer, the last thing she needs is to feel like she's going to lose her mommy too, but one day I am going to have to provide her with a step dad and this is a step I have to take if that is ever going to happen.